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昨晚算是正式失眠。清醒到凌晨三点。原来心头毫无挂念，有时候也那么让人难以入睡。脸颊麻木，头脑清醒，眼睛疲倦。什么都不想想，什么都不愿想。

手机游戏玩到爆。最后无情地自动关机。伴随着黎明前夕的寂静，我的心也如此空荡。准确地说，应该是纯净。毫无瑕疵，毫无渲染，不被任何悲喜感染。平静而又安详。

前半夜和BJ同学畅聊。谈学业，谈人生，谈未来。我们的话题仅限如此，却又有说不完的废话。当时好怅然，感叹时间的力量是伟大的，让我穿梭了二十几年。同时又感觉自己好渺小，无力同强大的时间抗衡。想做个天真的孩子，但又嫌太无知，想做个成熟的大人，但又怕太世俗。人生的每一道题目似乎都变成选择题，顾此失彼。

朋友告诫我说，一定要执着于自己的追求。不然会悔恨终生。我又何尝不想如此坚定呢。人生不允许有太多的悔恨，否则你将永远生活在自责之中。我亲身体会。

我特别欣赏的一首歌，如果您有时间驻留，请用心把它听完。正如歌词中所唱：“hold your own, know your name, go your own way."

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads saying
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken heart then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way

And everything will be fine

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything, everything will be fine
Everything

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.

Yeah everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything

Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine? (Go your own way)

Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold